well hello there, I noticed I don't blog much. I don't really see the point though. Like I can really be honest here. Nevertheless, I'm writing aren't I? Well, Raya this year was quite okay. I don't really feel the joy of it that much. I celebrated it at Muar. Got to see my cousins, though I hate them small annoying little brats, they piss me off sometimes. They're always asking for my phone. Aliff actually saw my password and he opened my phone without asking for permission. I went ballistic, of course. I woke up late on the morning of Raya, I'm pretty sure I was the last one to wake up. Seriously, I was so sleepy. Got duit raya from my aunts and uncles. My dad gave me duit raya earlier. I was so psyched when I was holding the envelope because it was thick. Then I opened it and guess what I found? A piece of folded paper!I was like what?! and looked at my dad and there he was, laughing. I opened it and it says Selamat Hari Raya, your money has been credited to your account,love ayah. HAHAHA he really does have a good sense of humor. I can't wait to swipe my debit card again, but I really have no idea what to buy. None of the clothes I saw catch my eye, I want a new watch, though I don't want to use my own money to pay for it. This time, holidays feel shorter, to my suprise. I really thought it's going to be so boring, I'll be counting the days. Well, guess not. Au revoir!

life's a DRAMA

BONJOUR LES GENS! well that means hello people in french. I think I want to learn how to speak french again. I forgot most of the words I learned before. So anyway, I haven't blog in quite a long time. The reason? I was not in the mood. Haha. My life nowadays, don't get me wrong it's not that I hate it, it's just that...it takes a lot of my energy you know? sigh. so anyway, my last post was on August 8th? that was like what? 3 weeks ago? well a lot has been happening within those 3 weeks. For starters, I fought with a lot of people. well, actually just one person. My ex best friend! Haha, did you know that we can break up with our best friends too? That sounds weird, breaking up with my best friend. Well, I found a quote, it stated that a friendship that ended never really began. So perhaps, ours never really happened? It is quite sad when I think about it. The reason of us breaking up? I don't quite know. Things were getting better for a moment there, then suddenly things just got out of our hands. We keep saying mean and hurtful stuff to each other. Nevertheless, everything happens for a reason. I'm not saying it was only his fault but mine too. Oh I don't want to dwell on this topic too much. Let's just stop here shall we?

The week after that? Hmm let's see, oh yeah! My drama, the same thing but only with different people. Haha, it's kinda funny really. But she does have the right to feel like that, I do tend to like people who I got close to. But I really hope I don't, that's for sure. Well, I'm trying to keep my distance now. I don't really text or inbox or wall him anymore.

This week! haha It's quite entertaining actually. We have exams starting on Monday, I think I did quite badly as I did not study anything. Well I got my mod maths paper. I heard Ruzain shouting my name and he said I got 83%. I was quite bummed about it. When I went to Pn.Siew, she said she can't believe I can get A for maths. She said I never do my homework, well that is a fact, I don't do homeworks anymore. Then I said, I may not concentrate in class, but I study. Techinically no, I only do it when I have to. Haha. Teachers call my name every five minutes in class, it irritates me but then again I guess the teachers and I share a mutual feeling don't we? Haha. Oh, did I mentioned that Ismah came to school? Yeah well she did, it was awkward at first. I was not really in the mood as I did not have enough sleep. But then it got better. So she gave us these sourvenirs, tees with different colours and all of us fought over it. I did not talk to them for the rest of the day. Haha the irony of it. They freaking switched the tees when I stepped outside the class to have the talk with Semah. Speaking of which, gosh dude, you really are a liar by heart, nahh I don't want to talk bad about you. So today I was supposed to buka puasa with them but my mom didn't let me. And now here I am, blogging a lot, I'm lifeless right now. I don't have anything to do. I want to watch Forest Gump now, if it ever finish downloading. So, ciao!

i love the way you lie

I'm so in love with that song. heeee

so anywho, I've been camping these past couple of days. I know right? Me, going camping. I bet if my brother saw me washing my own dishes, he would laugh his ass off. The weekend is great, I love the weekends. I've never really had that camp experience. This is like my second time going to a camp. All I have to say is, the accomodation is quite good, but I would love if I had an extra pillow though. It was super cold during the night, totally my cup of tea because I can't really sleep without air conditioner. But the things is, I could feel drops of water on my face when I sleep. It must have been raining in the middle of the night. The toilets were okay, not that clean but not that dirty either. I loved the showers. The water was cold but not that hot, it was just nice. I loved the activities. Especially the acid thing and the electric thing. I don't know what they call it. I really wanted to go rock climbing as I've never done it before. Well I guess, time doesn't allow me to do that at the time. I sat with Eda when we had to go home. Sorry Eda! I'll make it up to you someday. Hehe. Got back at home at about 9 something. I was really tired. I watched the tv with Naqi for a minute there. I woke up in the middle of the night finding myself on my bed. I don't even know how I got there. Mama woke me up in the morning for school. I groaned and told her I didn't want to go and plus my whole body aches. Suprisingly, she was okay with it. That's a first. haha. So now, here I am, blogging, I didn't even shower yet. I miss school. I miss seeing my friends, I miss gossiping with Sandy and Ruth. I miss talking to Riss. I miss HIM eventhough I'm not supposed to. HAHA guess who I miss! and I miss Suraj too eventhough he and I are technically not friends. He couldn't even look at me. But whatever, I'm giving him time to cool off just like I did with F and M. I can't wait to go to school tomorrow! I sound like a nerd. and I don't even pay attention in class. I always get scolded by teacher because I TALK WAY TOO MUCH and plus my voice is so loud. but what the heck? I still love going to school. Addio!

just gonna stand there and watch me burn

today? I shall call it a BIMBO day! seriously, I did so many bimbo things today. first, I went to pokok cemerlang. saw zoul. I feel the sudden urge to wear my old bag. and so, I changed with him but with his stuff in my bag and with my stuff in his bag. How dumb is that?! Zoul went outside and said he would come in later. so I waited and it was already 1.30. I panicked as I assumed Zoul went home. I was like dang it! Then I went upstairs to give Jo her watergun. saw roo and sandy on the way. she wanted to watch S preform but then she has account class. Too bad Sand, he was super super awesome. If a guy ever sing that song to me, I would melt right then and there. saw jo. gave her the thing and got super thirsty. I was walking a lot at that time. being a bimbo I am, I drank Joey's water. HAHAHA. what a waste of hours of fasting. hmmm. then I went to the auditions. Heard A sing, he wasn't that good anyway, being an asshole he is. I can't even hear his voice. What I really like is S. So sweeeeeet! then went to Illa's house with Ira and ate the super duper yummy mac and cheese! I got home, took a shower. Then I went online. Wrote on M's wall and ask him to unblock me. That guy is super duper stubborn and so sarcastic. and guess what? He deleted his status right before he unblock us. damn, he's still paranoid with me reading anything he posted. why oh why? I was online for hours. I didnt even do my homework, sorry Miss T. slept at 11 on my couch, woke up at 3 a.m. ,packed my bags and go to sleep. I guess that's all then. adios!

things change, people change, shit happens but that's life.

well, things are looking up for me lately. those guys started to talk to me. haha if you know me, you know which ones. well for starters, he smiled at me first rather than me saying hi. He gave me the kind of smile where he showed his full set of teeth. haha how descriptive am I? I have to admit I was so excited because that's the first time he did that after months of not talking. But the thing is, I was really really dissapointed. He was not the guy that he used to be. He changed so much. I didnt even realise it as I haven't talk to him for awhile. It's really sad though. But that's life right? I mean come on, look at my title. well. as for the other guy. things are better I guess. At least he doesn't avoid me or ignore me right? It suprises me that he's acting like this. But whatever, it's all good. what I don't like is, his friends started disturbing me at school. It was so annoying. Especially that A guy. I like S better eventhough both of them are mean and rude. July has been a really bad month. So many shit happening this month. I fought with my best friend, I lose that person, I fought again with someone I couldnt rememeber now. haha goldfish! speaking of which, I don't even remember what I wanted to write so I'll stop here. Arriverderci!

blogging for the first time! haha

okay now it's 1.48 in the morning and I have not sleep yet. HOW DUMB IS THAT?! and I have school tomorrow. Damn. haha. so anyway, Illa has been pestering me to do this thing. blogging huh? not really my cup of tea. My cup of tea would be with scones and strawberry jam with whipped cream on the side. hmmm sounds delish. Well, people usually write about what they did right? So, what i did just now was lying on my couch with the lights out and just stare into space wondering what happened this past few months. how much I changed, how much people change. what happened to me, what happened to all of us. Those are the thoughts that have been wondering in my head while I was lying down. I must have looked emo, well I feel emotional anyway. These mood swings are really killing me. Well, that's all I have for now. Au revoir!